dreaming~

only few month way to go. then i will be at san francisco. bestnyer.....!!!! xsabar.
prcaye atau pun tdk kaki yg kecik lg katik ni bakal menjejak kaki k one of the
best city in california. mostly i will spend around 7 days to there but unfortunately
it takes around 12 hour from KL to San francisco. looooooooong way to go~ fuh!
right nw, i tgh excited explore kt internet about san francisco, how its look like,
ape yg best sgt kt sne, detail about san francisco. then i kne buat plan. yup, plan.
what should i buy, bring. urm.... firstly i rse i should try search for new handbag.
ade trpikir nk beli online tp rse mcm xyakin plak, xpuas pun ye jgak. i need something
more tangible. NOSE? XOXO?ROXY?PADINI? xthu la. kne try servey2 dlu then bru
leh decide.

cantekkn..... melting~

miserable

.lately i always say or doing something that can make people angry with me. i always say something that i should not say. after that i really feel regret for say it. i dnt know why i keep doing it. it is not my attention at all. i keep regret after say it. maybe because im too excited to talk, because lately i seldom to communicate with other people. i with my own world. i just with my tiny lap top and my korean drama. it make me depress enough when i think about it again. it is not because i dnt hve any friend, i do have ok. but i choose to be alone because i dnt knw how to express myself. i afraid people might misinterpret what exactly i trying to say. that why i choose to be alone. my life now doesnt look great. one by one problem come without any solution. i just let it go until the point i cnt take it. infect my study going to worst. seems like i dnt care about my study. the feel is not there. this is really not me. fatin najwa is not someone who easy to feel down. she used to be strong. she also used to pretend nothing happen and going through life as ease as she can. but what happen now? what make it change? everything looks like doesnt make sense for me. i dnt knw until when all this will end. ya Allah pls give me some strenght . i really need it right now.