I need your shoulder!

Almost a month leaves to sit final paper for my lovely EPT. Surely,  the reader will curious what exactly that means? Hahahaha. The only thing that i can do is laugh with scary smile. Like this =).  EPT is stand for English Placement Test. Course that provided by Cell Pad for new student who need help in English. Yesterday i have a chat with my adorable friend’s, hani.  Everything goes ok, until she starts to ask me about uia. I don’t know how to tell her how really suffer i am to be here. I already stuck at Cell Pad for almost 6 month, since 11^th September 2011 with my friends. Luckily i in level 6, the last stage to exempt from cell pad and only after that i can go to Kuliyah. It sound pretty good right, but it is actually the most tough level in the EPT. Almost all the student are stuck in this level. That not good for me. During the lecture, i dnt do well in my essay. Still repeat the same mistake, here and there, tenses, grammar, and i have big problem in vocab. Yes, i do know about those new words, but i dnt know how to use it and not really confident to use them.  Even until now..... huhuhu. I trying  to ignore about that, but it came more worse. The only things that i can do is just relax and try my best for the final exam. EPT.... EPT..... i have to love it. Seems like i dnt have choice, right? Urm......  with my parents hope, i can easily give up. I dnt want to lose smile from them. I want them to proud of me. That all..... proud of me....  sometimes when i start to think about it, it really freak me out! I dnt know what else do i need to do now... do i need to transfer to another university, or not.... i feel like dying..... 

p/s : Cell Pad please bring back my smile again like the first time i come here.

oh Aaronku!

.ya allah knape ngan aku ni.

.hampir setiap hari aku tngk cite nora elena ni ulang2.

.what happen to me huhuhu.

.ni semua gara2 si aaron yg kacak lg...... wah.....

. romantiknyer la hai si aaron ni.

.comel plak lg.

.smlm ak sanggup tunggu tngk cite  arahan pertama aaron.

.tajuk cite dy "kekasih awal dan akhir".

. even cite tu kurang best xthu nape ak still jugak tngk citer tu smpai hbis.

.tunggu jugak kalau2 ade part romantik dlm cite tu, tp xdew pun.

.frust glew kot...

.anyway hopefully ak akan dpt suami yg seromantik aaron.

.hopefully hihihi =)))).

cute glerrrrrrrrr kan.  

girls day out!

. last week xthu knape tibe2 ak tringin sgt nk mkn pizza.

. nk kate xpenah mkn, asenyer selalu.

. pelik2.... hehehe. but nevermind.

. ni semua alasan utk brjalan n shooping hehe~.

.ak n kwn ak pun plan la kuar g klcc.

.sb sne la tempat plg trdekat n senang nk mkn pizza.

. even ramai yg xboleh join, tp ak stil happy.

.sb ak dpt shoooooooping!!!!.

. xdew la beli brg sgt , tp hampir setiap kdai kot ak pegi.

. naseb baik la ade member yg sehati sejiwa ngan ak ni.

.ak ingatkn ak sorg jew yg kaki S ni. 

.rupernyer ade jugak.

namenyer fatin afiqah a.k.a model somalia yg sggggggt cute hihi=)).
.tp part yg ak xleh lupe,bile aten afiqah kne kacau ngan pemandu teksi.
.comel kot hihihi.
.aten fiqah relax jew ak plak yg cuak.
.almaklumla model la katekn.
.ni smua gara2 aten fiqah angkat tangan lepas pemandu teksi tu
.bg laluan mse kteorg nk lintas jalan tu.
.mne xcuaknyer,dy ikut kteorg kot.

.tp nasib baik jugak kteorg jalan mcm lipas kudung time tu,kalau x.huhuhu.
.pelik sungguh org ni, kalau buat baik org salah anggap, tp kalau buat jahat dpt dosa plak.
.pelik2.... dunia2.... hahaha!.
. by the way thanx atin afiqah sb sudi layan kerenah cek. 

.t kte shoooooping lg yer ngeeee~.

p/s: ntah bile agaknyer dpt buang tabiat yg sungguh tdk elok ni. shooooping2...... =)))))

.best treatment ever.

recipe of disaster

i dnt know how to express my feeling right now.

 .how n to who should i say this.

.but for sure, its really hurt.

 .im trying to accept all the changes, but i think its doesnt work.

.we are rarely spend time together n be together.

.even though he try, its seems hard for me.

 .perhaps, there is nothing going happen in our relationship.

 .i luv him so much. but still, hope that he will understand me more.

 .pretend to be strong, as strong as i can.

 .pretend to understand why he keep doing this.

 .this all kind of feeling complete my recipe of disaster.

p/s : why so hard to pls..... ???